Day 8

1. Realizing what could be the answer to my love life question. I realized this morning that it could be that I haven't been asking God to give me the person I need rather, I have been asking God to give me a person who a) I think I need or b) a person who will adjust to who I am or c) a person who i think deserves me. Now I think that could very well be on the conceited side...on the side of "the girl who meets me will be lucky" thus implying "I need not change, I have to find that person who deserves me or is up to to my standards". I could be the only one feeling this or there could be a couple of us out here falling into the same trap. I was lucky that God made me realize that even in this aspect of life I have to seek to become better and I'm not "already there". This is a lesson in humility in asking God to give me what I need (not what I want) and to seek His desires for me (while being fixated on what I desire) in this aspect. I think this is a prelude to a great story on how God's plan smokes my plan. I am both very thankful and very excited!

2. Good meeting with my trainee. I've been blessed with a really good trainee. Good at work and good in the heart. I feel so luck that I have this guy in my team and I'm excited to help him realize his full potential. If I end up reporting to him one day, I will not mind at at all. I will in fact be happy to have stepped aside and helped him live out the extent of what he could be. We had a good meeting yesterday where we just bounced off ideas devoid of the "boss-trainee" pretense and I think we came up with good stuff. We hope these plans of ours workout but just the "getting there" was a blessing in itself.

3. Failing a big test. We failed a BIG test in the office. I don't know how big BIG is in your offices but this was of "General Manager Importance" in ours. The beautiful thing that came out of it was that I didn't see it as a failure and so did our department boss (he even called it just a "minor setback"). I usually take these things hard but this time all I was thinking was "its only a failure if we don't learn from it" and on the way home I was so happy thinking "Yahoo! I'm on the way to my first prayer group meeting this year." Have I matured? Have I learned to leave work behind at the office gates? Have I learned to focus on what really counts? ...becuase there was no fire or enthusiasm loss on my end so I guess I'm in a healthier state of being nowadays :)

4. My first prayer group meeting with my new group was a huge success. This year is starts off with so many new things for me: new job, new (old) car, and biggest of all, new prayer group. As their leader I'm thinking "Am I starting from scratch? Will this be yet another year swimming upstream? Will they even allow me to be their leader?". I drove home excited but guarded and not knowing what to expect. I was surprised to know that people were early (before me!). Dinner was good and we had a lot of fun at the table but it just got better during the prayer and the discussion! I was so wrong expecting what I did because our meeting was one of the best I've every had. Everyone is inspired, excited, and just raring to serve and it is their energy that inspires and excites me. I am sure to be learning a lot from these guy and I'm excited to serve them! Now what I thought was a tough task ahead (taking on a new group) is actually turning out to be a convenience. And with work piling up (fast) in the office, this is perfect timing. Sometimes you really get what you need when you need it without even expecting it! Thank you Lord!